tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-40752753990659299212024-03-05T10:27:53.849-08:00onameadowleaonameadowleahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02051797406780707218noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4075275399065929921.post-24967097853074302332009-08-15T09:59:00.000-07:002009-08-15T10:25:21.760-07:00Quarantined<div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjy-w8249xEJ_muEBL2hSXjpiJ9oX61-ycSWnpFpMeg4PoYoH_8Jq8RaSP3pIhzhQAQvFIohtBtQ46x4l2ewmqNOaPwpXiVZC1eqR5pKP9eopoAMM8rWOQzzvEpX6Wxrgx76mWQFD02MmCR/s1600-h/home.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 216px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjy-w8249xEJ_muEBL2hSXjpiJ9oX61-ycSWnpFpMeg4PoYoH_8Jq8RaSP3pIhzhQAQvFIohtBtQ46x4l2ewmqNOaPwpXiVZC1eqR5pKP9eopoAMM8rWOQzzvEpX6Wxrgx76mWQFD02MmCR/s320/home.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5370236605214563794" border="0" /></a>I'm at home, sick with the flu. The doctor says I'm contagious, so I have to stay in my apartment, away from everyone and the world, for three days. For all the times I wanted to just be alone...i have it now. The Austin weather is making me ill. It's hot days and humid rain make my immune system turn. I miss autumn. My favorite season. The summer lasts too long here that's why I anticipate the colder weather. Austin only gets about two months of coldish weather a year. When it finally gets here....well....before you know it...it's gone. I miss the all the layers, big wool coats and hot chocolate. Tones of cozy blankets and my vhs collection will be watched over and over this autumn/winter. So many things are different this year, I can see myself being alone more because those people I thought I could call my family, could care less about the little things. I want there to be a new beginning for me as well. A positive beginning. I have so many things I want to do and I always have a problem letting unimportant things get in the way. I just want to be happy. Content with myself. It's hard when I am not happy with where I am in my life right now. I need to get out of Texas. It's sucking me dry and I can't breathe. I need a vacation. I need life. I need new surroundings, new people, new culture, new new new.<br />I want a lot of things. Believe me, I can rant on about what I think I can do, but in actuality i need to just do it. I need to just do it and not care what everybody else thinks because let's face it...it's only me in the end. I can only take care of myself and all this self loathing has got to stop because I'm driving myself crazy.<br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/Jgjis9PLRkM&hl=en&fs=1&rel=0"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/Jgjis9PLRkM&hl=en&fs=1&rel=0" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>onameadowleahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02051797406780707218noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4075275399065929921.post-81568034667214071532009-07-18T07:40:00.000-07:002009-07-18T07:45:51.498-07:00I'm new here<object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/wsbR2dEmHGc&hl=en&fs=1&"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/wsbR2dEmHGc&hl=en&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />I don't quite know what I'm doing here......<br />This is the start of something new.I can't fully explain.<br />Just listen.onameadowleahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02051797406780707218noreply@blogger.com0